Faith & love.......

 Wondering while sitting at the corner of a room, if faith brings love or love brings faith....!
 wondering if help is an act of love to mankind, which gives birth to faith?
wondering if smile is an act of love to courtesy, which builds up faith?
wondering if talk is an act of love to courtship, which deepens the faith?
wondering if silence is an act of love to lover, which strengthen the faith?

Then why distance demolishes this faith and love?
Does the faith decide that it couldn't believe love if its true or not from distance? Or it is the love which wonder if there wasn't anything called as a relationship but just friends forever???

I wonder if faith brings love or love brings faith. Why distance demolished this love and faith together??

Answer to any why's.................!!!

Why Why Why........................... why its me all the time....?

Why God is testing me, Why He is so cruel or he believes my confidence,

Why I need to make all the sacrifices first,

Why I'm not allow to speak, when I am in pain,

Why I had trusted the people around, were they are my well-wishers,

Why he played with my sentimental, when he knew I am like a coconut,

What I did to him that he does what he shouldn't,

Why he came in my life, when he knows he will go,

Why he teached me to trust, when he wants to break it one day,

Why he made and realised me to be his special, when he already has someone in his life,

Why can't he keep up his promises, he took while tying knot with me,

Why he gave me a responsibility, for which I wasn't ready,

so many WHY's but answers for none, why does people search for why's when they know they will never get an answer for any of them? Why people still believe in what they like most, when they know their soul is alarming them.

Does anybody has any answer to any of these WHY...? 

Why can't we perceive what is in the present..................why, why...?

Eternal Promise........

One day you came and gloomed my life, tickled on my tummy and ceased my tears.

You reached out for my love and hold me tightly in your arms, looked closely into my eyes and my life was blessed with your love.

In the cold nights and windy rains. Your love becomes my warmth and your smile my courage. Moments brings me closer but distance made us farer. 

YOu took away my loneliness and you gave me understanding within your undying love. You gave me eternal promise, you gave me strength to stand whenever I fall.

But now I must let you go, I know no matter how much I wish, you have to be go forever.

It is hard to say you goodbye, so I didn't say,

It was hard to stop crying, so stand in the rain,

It was painful, but I didn't scream.

To the one who touched my life with love. 

I promised I will never cry......

But I can still feel you, I can still talk to you, I can still hug you, " Coz your eternal promise always reminds me, that you will never gonna leave me........!!!

I am not diseased but I am SINGULAR....

I am sorry, though I do lots of self-talk but i also like to talk to people. I am afraid to mix socially because I had a fear if I would fail to understand the literal meaning of their jokes. Its difficult to understand any metaphors, colloquial language and to participate in discussions, but I don't mind if you would explain me its logical meaning. I get offended with the usage of word like road, so I call it happy...

I am jealous about the new house of my friend, but I like mine one alot. I am afraid I would need to vacate it, if I would continue banging the walls when I am distressed. So I started writing a diary, it gives me lot of pleasure.

I am independent to do all my work but I am messy most of the times. I like being taxonomic but I forget the sequence of washing clothes, withdrawing cash from ATM. I like to be puctual because I know time is precious so I run with the fingers of a clock. 

I don't know what is a pain and how people commonly expresses it but one thing which annoys me is when other person is unable to hear and understand my words.  I am not yelling but saying it aloud to make them hear. I am trying to make things easier and comfortable for them but unfornately it becomes worse.

That does not mean, I am diseased but I am different......unique and singular because everybody else is the same...;)

Voyage....don't know where it ends....!!

My voyage was started, when I came into the world and disturbed everybody with my first cry. Grew up with siblings. I am delightful that I didn't contribute to increase sea level as never got the chance to cry for. Got everything, never heard "NO" so didn't know what is the feeling if somebody says so....!!! 
Always been navigated, guarded from the hale storms, thunder showers and wild sea animals.


Never felt there is anything beyond this beautiful horizon when looked towards the family at home and friends at school. One day short visit to the special school for crippled, dumb and deaf changed my vision for life and gave a new direction in the voyage.


Enter into high school, then college and finally in the university.. keeping the feeling alive. At times, felt what difference any soul can make in this world. Suddenly one unknown hand raised and guided me not to stop. Admired his faith and trusted the self. But time made me realise that those helping hands had already left.


Consoled the self, saying people does come and go, don't run after when it had left you because its not yours....!!!  The crave to reach destination increased when saw an island. Unknowingly there is a halt in the long voyage, where I met another sailor. Stopped but found he is leaving. I don't know if I should stop him or should sail further. My mind is pushing to sail the ship still farther, reminding the destination- the feeling which I have kept alive since the time it had uprooted but thrombing heart is pleading to stop him this time. I don't know what shall I do. Should I stop when the sailor didn't say me anything?


But somewhere from my soul I could hear a voice saying, "Have I ever thought if that sailor is also dumb or deaf?"
Should I be patient to hear him. Understand his silence
Destiny will make you stop when and where you need to, to let you know your voyage has come to an end................!